I talked to a bunch of girls today. All of them are great. I consider each one a great friend to have. But at the same time I realized that I’m not really their ‘friend’ I’m more an aquientance to them. Then I realized that I don’t have any friends, really, just a lot of aquientances. No one who’s a ‘best friend’ or a group I can call up and hang out with whenever I want. I used to have this, but I only had it for a brief period of time. I miss it. Then I thought ‘I need someone(s) to give all my time too.’ But isn’t that a girlfriend? I’d have to guess so. So how am I to get a girlfriend if no one talks to me, or acknowledges me? I know it seems like the ideal situation for a ladies man, but I’m not a ladies man, far from it, in fact. I guess I’m not a valuable friend/aquientance.
There’s a saying (though I forget the exact words) that says something about how we all will have someone. But this is quite untrue (to my findings). I find that since I’m hitting a troublesome spot and getting quite down about it, that I might never recover. So if I then give up on finding ‘the one’, I’m left friendless, relationshipless, and lifeless in the bathtub with my wrists cut.
“Life is like a movie, if you’ve sat through more than half of it and its sucked every second so far, it probably isn’t gonna get great right at the end and make it all worthwhile. None should blame you for walking out early.”
-Doug Stanhope
